Know your VALUE

Some years I tend to be a HUGE reader, and some years I tend to only get through a handful of books. This year, I am on an official reading binge. I cannot seem to get enough words into me - via reading actual books and also by listening to audiobooks. And whoa, have I have stumbled across some good ones.

One of the best in my 2018 pile is Knowing Your Value by Mika Brzezinski. It was excellent. LOVED it. Not only does she share her own harrowing story of moving up the ranks in the television business, but she covers the stories of other business mavens such as Sheryl Sandberg and Susie Orman. This book does not serve up fluffy, happy-go-lucky, just ‘put-your-mind-to-it’ stories. No, this book goes into the nitty gritty of negotiation, career strategy and rising up to your potential even when everyone else is trying desperately to bring you down. It is meaty goodness served up with a side of brass tactics.

Important warning: the book does have a ridiculous Q&A with Trump - before he was prez - and knowing what we know now, it is even more offensive. But it does not take away from the awesomeness of this book. Just roll your eyes, ignore and move on.

I really knew nothing about Mika Brzezinski. I saw the title while scrolling through the online library listings and just grabbed it. I knew there would be something in it for me. I still have never seen her show Morning Joe, and likely I will never tune in, but if there is a woman out there who has risen to that level of success, I want to hear her story.

There have been so many times in my career - especially working as a graphic designer in the highly toxic and competitive world of branding - when I just did not see the value I was bringing to the table. I under-quoted and under-charged so many times, it still amazes me I was able to hit six figure years. But I did - by working more and more and more and… big breath… more. It was so bad on so many levels. I was tired, burnt out, cranky, and pissed off all the time. I was definitely driven by some subconscious belief that I was only worth so much, and whatever I was worth had to be earned by working hard 24/7.

But now I am older, wiser and I definitely have a better sense of my worth.

It feels good.

One thing I do now, before I put any quote together or list a new product or service, is I ask myself, “What would Laura* do? What would Laura charge?”

Laura is one of my bestest friends and she is a total SuperMaven.

Most of us know of at least one bad-ass, super successful person in our life who takes no bullshit. They know their value, they step up to the plate and they ask for what they want. They are not afraid to ruffle feathers. They don’t worry about what others think. You need to think of that person when you are negotiating a deal or contract.

Because that SuperMaven is someone you RESPECT. They may not be liked all the time by everyone, but you can be sure as heck they are respected. And that is what you want for yourself. Respect leads to value - which leads to being paid what you are worth.

And if you don't have someone in your life that is a SuperMaven, think of Ellen or Oprah or someone else who inspires you and leads a life you think is effing fantastic. Think of them, and push aside that little voice inside of you that says “Maybe I am asking for too much”. Tell that voice to SHUT UP.

Because then YOU will become the SuperMaven. Then YOU will be the one to inspire someone else to level up, power up and embrace the glory.

And the world needs more SuperMavens.

To your brave success,

Alana

*Not her real name. Protecting the somewhat innocent lol.

Nothing is Expensive

Full disclaimer - I am not a financial guru.

But I do consider myself a mindset maven.

I believe your thoughts become your feelings, which create your reality.

I believe what you you think about all the time shows up in your life. Especially when you add an emotional charge to it.

I believe if you spend time thinking about what you DON’T want, that crap will manifest into your life faster than you can say, “Get that crap away from me.”

And so, for that reason, I believe it is imperative that one word be completely banned from your life:

Expensive.

If you are someone who complains all the time that things are expensive, then chances are you are frustrated with your financial situation.

Because every single time you say something is ‘expensive’, what you are actually saying is, “I can’t afford that”.

And every time you say, “I can’t afford that”, you are repelling abundance and all things good from coming into your life.

You are telling the universe that yup, I am poor and can’t have that. Even if that isn’t at all true on paper.

You will never be a SuperMaven if you see things as expensive vs cheap.

Never, ever, ever say something is expensive.

Because it isn’t.

Every item has a monetary amount attached to it, and it is not expensive or cheap or fair. It just is.

Whether you choose to spend money on it is another matter. It depends if the product or service has enough value in it for you to fork over the cash.

See how you can shift the mindset around it?

When I see a $250 bottle of wine, I don’t ever say, “Whoa, that is expensive!". I just choose not to buy it. Because it doesn’t hold enough value for me to spend that quantity of money on it. It doesn't bring me a lot of joy. I am very happy with my $15 bottles of pinot prigio (the one with the dachshund on the label).

But someone else - like a sommelier - might find a ton of happiness in that $250 bottle. They might feel totally fulfilled and excited with the purchase because it is of true value to them. If they hand over the cash with joy, then it is a win win situation.

Saying something is expensive is, for many, a hard habit to break. I believe this is because many of us have a deep-seeded need to remain poor (poor people are more altruistic and who doesn’t want to be like Mother Teresa?! MT was totally rich btw), and it helps us bond with the masses.

Here is a simple trick to combat that negative reflex reaction of claiming something is expensive.

Instead of responding with “That is too expensive!” every time you pick up something with a fat sticker price, just say:

“Wow, isn’t that interesting”.

Approach it with curiosity.

Curiosity has a more positive charge, and it doesn’t suggest you can’t have it, or deserve it.

Saying, “Isn’t that interesting” also removes all judgement from the situation. And money loves to gravitate towards a judgement free zone, mavens!

This will create a HUGE shift in your money mindset.

I literally shudder every time someone says something is expensive. It simply isn’t true.

Try banning expensive from your vocabulary for a month and see how much better you feel. Don’t be surprised if more cash finds its way to you, too.

To your brave success,

Alana

You know more than you think you know

A few weeks ago I wrote the story of The Chicken Sticker where I shared a funny story about getting over the fear of charging potentially 'too much' for your services. I hope it inspires you to let that self-sabotaging story go because, as the story explains, someone, somewhere paid thousands of dollars for me to design a stupid sticker for $1 off a pack of chicken.

Another important self-sabotaging story to let go of is, "I don't know enough".

I feel very confident declaring that yes, 98% of the time you do know enough. You know more than you think you know. Think back - were you ever in a situation you thought was waaaaaay above your abilities and you wrangled through and pulled it off like a champ? I am hearing a 'hells ya!'

For me, I always remember the time I almost worked for one of the big Canadian banks. About 8 years ago, the Royal Bank of Canada used to have a niche financial leg of their business with its own sub-brand, RBC Dexia, and a recruiter put me forward for a Senior Graphic Designer role. While I wasn't jazzed about working somewhere so corporate, the job paid 90k/year and had all the fun trappings of a bank job - great benefits, decent hours, a Starbucks right in the building. And as my husband was still pursuing a music career and only working part-time, it made sense to go for some decent cash and not worry about hustling my own entrepreneurial career at the same time. 

So I get dressed up in my best bank-appropriate outfit (cream blouse, black wide-leg pants, sensible heels), tuck my portfolio under my arm and head to the tall glassy RBC building downtown for my first interview.

It was intense. This was a serious company and a serious role. The people who interviewed me, while very nice, were serious. One guy got especially excited to point out a spacing error on my resume. Oops. Shoot. Not the best kinda mistake to make when you are supposed to be a detail-oriented designer. Nonetheless, the interview went well. I got called for a second, so I went.

This time, I started to freak out a bit. The panel interviewing me - I think there were three people, all men - started to go on and on about complex illustration skills, conceptual talent, visual data management and I don't know what the eff else. It all started to sound just TOO MUCH, TOO HARD and beyond my level of expertise. I started to crumble. No way could I do this job and I feared maybe they knew it, too.

At one point, one of the interviewers  - let's call him Alex - asked me if I would like to see some printed samples of what they were talking about, so I could get an idea of the work they produced. I said yes, of course, and prepared myself to feel totally incompetent among these bad-ass banker gurus.

I was led to a back storage room where there were thousands of RBC Dexia brochures and annual reports etc... Alex picks one up and proceeds to talk about it with grand reverence and painstakingly analyzes its conceptual brilliance and the technical skills used to execute this masterpiece.

It was at this moment I literally tried not to laugh. I was so overcome with relief and laughter at the same time I knew if I tried to speak I would sound like I was choking. So I just kept nodding and murmuring "mmm, ok, uh-huh, mmmm!"

This is what was actually going through my mind: 

"Is this really happening? Are you effing KIDDING MEEEEE?? This is a boring, typical bank brochure (though admittedly, a nicer one than most) with an illustration of a PAPER AIRPLANE on it and he thinks this is cerebral, complex stuff? He/they made it sound so HARD and complicated... And THIS is what they were talking about the whole time? I am going to need some Bailey's in my Starbucks. Pronto."

After this initial mental rant, my brain changed gears and went here:

"OMGeee Alana you are such an idiot sometimes. Once again, you assume everything is so goddam hard and out of reach and you set yourself up for failure. You think everyone is better than you, smarter than you and then hello, here is proof that they are not. They are just normal corporate folk doing a normal corporate job that you can TOTALLY handle. Get your shit together and stop worrying so much."

Indeed, I had so built up the job in my head, and had so torn down my self-worth and expertise, I allowed myself to be totally overwhelmed with insecurity. I allowed myself to be intimidated and then I waivered in my worth. Not my proudest moment.

In the end, I didn't get the job. There was a weird moment in the interview process (made it to a third phone interview) where I knew in my gut it just wasn't going to happen. I think it went to a guy who already worked for RBC, but really, I almost didn't care. Ironically, even though I didn't get the job, I came away with bolstered self-esteem. I knew - I REALLY knew in my bones - I could do the job. And do it well. I was good enough, smart enough and knew enough to pull it off. For that reason alone, I was super grateful I went through the somewhat gruelling interview/recruitment process. I often think back to this experience when I am overcome with moments of doubt, and it does seem to magically snap me back to a positive headspace. A great example of how seemingly crappy past experiences teach us amazing lessons down the line.

And yes, while there are times we go beyond our comfort zone and end up completely out of our depth and we fail - I have a good blog post brewing about that topic! - most of the time, we are able to step up to the plate and Rock the Casbah.

I know more than I think I know.

YOU know more than you think you know.

WE know more than we think we know. 

Keep growing, keep learning, keep stretching yourself - but don't slow down out of a fear you need to know more before you can do more. You will only know more once you DO more, so just go out there and get it done.

To your brave success,
Alana

Keeping fonts fab

Lately I have been asked a ton of questions about fonts and how it they can support a brand, so here is a tidbit to help your brand shine. Of course, fonts alone do not make a brand, but great typography can absolutely help to create a brand that is engaging and inspiring. And 100% profesh.

And while it is sooooo fun to play with fonts and there are thousands of really amazing ones out there, but I’m putting you on strict typography diet. You need a maximum of two fonts to effectively design all of your branding elements (business card, postcards, website, etc.). Remember, with every font you also have bold and italic options for adding emphasis, so you are not as limited as you might think.

When choosing your two fonts, always select typefaces that are in visual contrast with one another. For example, mix a sans serif font (like Helvetica, Gills Sans, or Proxima) with a serif font (like Garamond, Baskerville, or Lora). Or use a sans serif font with a script font (ie: Monterey, Embassy, or Edwardian Script). This is a tried and true formula and will enable you to keep your designs engaging without being busy or overwhelming. The more contrast you have between your two fonts, the better your engagement and legibility.

In addition, choose clean, simple fonts. Legibility trumps aesthetics - always. Also, remember to think about people who may be visually impaired and make your type as easy to read as possible. Accessibility is a big issue these days, especially in web design, and as many people as possible should be able to read your content.

And one last note: do NOT decide to throw in a random font unless it is for a one-off specific program or product that is short lived and needs its own mini identity. Keep it simple when it comes to design and surprise! The rest of your life feels a little simpler, too.

To your brave success,

Alana

The Chicken Sticker

Happy 2018!

I know we are a month in already, but I'm just not the kinda person that goes all cray-cray excited at the beginning of the New Year. I like to ease into the year and see what goals feel right, and think about what I really want to focus on. I’m slowlying crystallizing my vision for the year and let me tell you, it will be #highvibe!!

With that in mind, today I thought I would share with you a short and kinda funny story about charging clients for our services. Funny stories raise your vibe instantly!

All of us at some point wonder if we are charging too much or too little. And as we power up into Supermavens, charging more and earning more, we can waiver with pangs of insecurity. There inevitably is a moment of “Crap, this feels a little uncomfortable. Can I really charge that much?” I, too, have those moments.

But then I remember the chicken sticker.

Years ago I worked at a design studio that specialized in food packaging. One of the clients was a mainstream grocery company so many of the projects were food related. I really had no interest in food packaging or design (I’m a vegetarian so I’m grossed out by many food products), but the job paid well and my co-workers were great. It was a paycheck and I tried to make the best of it. Le sigh.

One day a small project got handed to me one day by the Account Manager and she just rolled her eyes as she briefed me. I was to design a $1 off sticker to go on Family Packs of raw chicken meat. You know the stickers I’m talking about? They are usually red and yellow and super ugly and loud so they get your attention. We call them violator stickers in the industry because they are designed to ‘violate’ the package so you can’t miss it.

Anyway, I thought this would take me about three hours - max. It was going to be small and simple, and the grocery chain already had a look and feel for their pricing stickers so I wasn’t re-inventing the wheel here.

Well, the whole project - I will spare you the total yawn-inducing details - took about 20 hours. 20 HOURS. After a billion ridiculous client changes and back and forth emails it was a total of 20 hours of billable time.

This particular agency charged the client $180/hr for the services of me and those on the team (referred to as a ‘blended rate’).

20 x $180 = $3600.

So someone somewhere approved a bill of $3600 for a frickin’ $1 off chicken sticker. I kid you not.

And while yes, this bill was going to a large corporation, there still had to be someone that looked at the invoice and said “Yup, $3600 for a chicken sticker, that sounds about right”... W. T. F. I really want to know what the ROI on this damn sticker was, btw.

So if you ever wonder “Can I really charge that?”, remember the chicken sticker. Someone was willing to pay a company $3200 for a stupid sticker.

Just how did the company get away with this? They had built a very strong relationship with the client. They were gifted sales people. They hustled. They probably lied too, so don’t do that! My point is, you can never say “Oh, no one will pay that for such and such” because it is not true. You just have to find the ones who value what you have to offer. They are out there, I promise.

To your brave succes,

Alana




 

TAKE THE FIRST STEP

Just a few more days of 2017 left!

As we prepare for the New Year, I found myself gravitating to this quote from the Suitcase Entrepreneur. I keep a notebook with scribbles and quotes in it, and about every week - usually on a Sunday eve - I go through it to see what resonates. As someone who has really thought a lot about the word 'failure', I have decided that this is the best definition. 

We only fail if we don't take at least one step.

Even a teeny tiny step will move us forward. Cue Rocky theme song victory music.

No matter how far along you are in your business, there are always going to be first steps. And some will be scary as sh*t. It is not just at the beginning of our entrepreneurial journey that we have to take leaps of faith. Oh no, those leaps keep comin', baby! Every time there is a new section of our business to tackle - I like to call them 'segments' - we have to take a deep breath and jump.

Just today, as I was writing sales copy for my new Supermavens coaching program, I had to take that first step of really defining what my signature program is all about, and putting it online. I have talked about it for almost a year, and now I have to jump into the fire. This is a new first step for me. It has taken hundreds (thousands?) of steps before this to get to this point, and now a new set of fears kick in. But I'm SO okay with that. I'm excited, actually. I'm totally down with all of it - the good, the bad, and the ugly tears (should they come).

I'm giving myself a moment of pride today to celebrate how far I have come, and more importantly, I am excited about what I can offer to my clients. Because the world needs more Supermavens.

What fears are you tackling in 2018? Are you ready to take some big steps? Tiny steps? Or just one important step that you know you need to take but are avoiding?

Whatever you need to do, do it now.

Don't let the next year go by without at least one epic moment of fear being replaced with an epic moment of 'YES, I did it'.

To your brave success,

Alana

HELLO, GOAL SETTING. I DON'T HATE YOU ANYMORE. OR MY LIFE.

As we come to the end of 2017, many of us are planning our 2018 and wondering how we can make it an awesome year.

While I do not obsess over New Year's resolutions, I do indeed set goals at the beginning of each year. I write down a list of realistic but challenging, attainable goals.

And this year, while it had some serious challenges (our rescue dog endured a health crisis that rocked me and my husband to the core, and my mom is now officially with a form of dementia), I am definitely TEAM 2017.

Why?

Because it is the year I fell in love again with goal setting.

And let me tell you, I did not think I would ever be writing that.

Around 2010, after the loss of my father to cancer, it is pretty safe to say that I fell into a downward spiral of depression and anxiety. It has literally taken me years to build myself up again, and as part of my 'restoration', I have had to rediscover the value of achievement, something that was once so easy for me to appreciate before I lost my father. I guess you can say I fell into that dark headspace where I became completely indifferent and apathetic ie: what is the point of anything???? Screw it.

While it has still been very easy for me to get stuff done and be productive (I can go all Type A when need be), it has been next to impossible for me to really challenge myself and put myself out there in a meaningful way. I have definitely not been brave for the last 7 years. Until this year.

I can see now that the beginning of this positive shift actually happened in 2012. I remember watching a Robin Sharma video about reflecting on the year just past (it was the end of December), and he recommended sitting down and writing down every single personal accomplishment achieved, month by month. No matter how big, small or teeny tiny, Robin said to write it down and you will be amazed by what you have actually done over the year. You will be pleasantly surprised.

So I did this. I sat down. I wrote. I reflected. I gasped.

No, I was not amazed at all of my accomplishments. I was horrified.

Because I had done fuck all. I had accomplished nothing. Nada. Zero.

Yes, I had worked a full-time job at a busy design studio - a job I absolutely hated but paid well - but that was about all I did. For the ENTIRE year. I worked at this job and ummm, I guess I walked my dog twice a day??? but that was it. It was a very depressing time for me and when I saw it written in black and white, I freaked the eff out. 

It was a horrible feeling. I felt I had failed. I was so mad at myself and I felt embarrassed.

Maybe some people could be happy just doing a day job and calling it a day, but I knew deep down that I was not that person. I needed more. I wanted more. I had given up on so many levels and I remember crying with both frustration and sadness. I clearly remember thinking that the driven, supermaven part of me was gone forever and I was never going to get her back. I felt doomed.

But, as it turns out, if you are committed to changing things for the better, there is a light at the tunnel. It just may take more time than you think and it is a process (ya ya ya, I know you have heard that before, but maybe today that will finally resonate with you).

Finally, in 2017, I was able to set some specific goals - mostly business oriented - and achieve them.

This year I:

- Attained my RGD (Registered Graphic Design) designation
- Attained a coaching certification
- Officially launched a coaching business
- Wrote an ebook and sold units online
- Joined Toastmasters and completed my Icebreaker speech

I finally had the energy and drive to get shit done that was important. This feels good. Suddenly, I remember the amazing feeling of working hard, focusing on a goal, and actually DOING IT - not just talking about it or thinking about it. Big difference, Mavens!

I could not have achieved any of these goals without:

- Major personal development work and mindset work
- Hiring a coach (actually, I hired multiple coaches over the course of the last two years)
- Deciding to be scared shitless at least 3x a week

My goal in sharing this with you, brave one, is that you will be reminded that we all have burdens and we all have heavy crap to deal with. But we can still keep moving forward - slowly, if need be. I believe we are all supermavens at heart. My goal for 2018 is to help more people step into their greatness and shine as bright as an iridescent unicorn under the Northern Lights.

To your brave (and shiny!) success,
Alana

 

SAY SOMETHING

When I began this blog about a year ago, I made the very deliberate decision to disable comments on the posts. I had listened to a podcast interview with Danielle Laporte - a formidable, warm tiger of a leader - and she boldly spoke about refusing others to comment on her blog because it was getting too intense. I am not sure if she still disables comments, but I remember hearing that and alarm bells went off in my head and thoughts like "OH M G I better also disable comments because I do NOT need that negativity in my life". Shutting them down.

If there is one thing that freaks me out these days it is cyberbullying. This fear was recently heightened when I discovered a former co-worker of mine - who I adored and was a dear friend - turned out to be a part-time aggressive cyberbully (not to me, but other mutual friends). That person may defend themselves as a comedian, but after choking back some tears after reading one of their vicious comments, I will wholeheartedly disagree. It made me super sad. It still does.

So when it came time to launch my blog I was definitely in the 'no comments' zone and felt it was the best thing to do. I was envisioning comments like 'You sound like a whiny loser' or 'You have no right to post such airy-fairy bullshit'. You know, those kind of kind of optimistic helpful comments we all know and love.

What I didn't think about was the fact that I was indeed letting fear run the show - and my online business.

What makes more sense is for me to TRY allowing comments and see where it goes. The fact is currently I have just a handful of readers - I am not Danielle Laporte obviously - and I may actually cultivate a nice little community here and be pleasantly surprised. And if it does go a little south I can always course correct. That sounds much more rational and allows me to be open to positive engagement with others.

And most importantly, what is right for Danielle Laporte is not necessarily right for me. 

By disabling comments it was just another way for me to keep people at arm's length and protect myself. But if I want to be brave and garner thousands of readers - which I do - then I have to be more open to online conversations.

Today, if you want to become a digital maven you really do need to let others engage on your blog AND engage with others on their blogs. It is imperative, necessary and hopefully an uplifting experience.

So Mavens, feel free to comment below and of course share this post! I am so excited to have you here.

To your brave success,
Alana

Here is a little story about awareness, and yet another moment when I realized it was ok to let go of struggle, no matter how tiny or insignificant.

I was doing some cooking on Sunday and had to chop two onions. I took out my handcrafted Canadian-made chopping board and started chopping away. I was making one of my faves, a simple Harvest Vegetable Stew from a Chatelaine Quickies cookbook - just in case you are a foodie and care lol. 

I was almost through the process when it dawned on me.

I hate my chopping board.

Now, this came as a shock to me. The board is gorgeous. I bought it at the One of a Kind Show a couple years ago and it is smooth and dark, with a rich walnut colour and quirky stripe, and a nice little hole in it so it hangs easily. I remember falling in love with it when I bought it.

I also remember that there was a board I loved even MORE. It was more interesting with a checkerboard pattern, a thicker wood, and most importantly, larger. It was probably twice the size. It was a chopping oasis.

I really wanted the bigger board. But I decided to compromise and settle for the smaller board which was still a teeny - but not insignificant - investment of $100. The larger board was $150. I hummed and hahhed and decided that I could live with the cheaper of the two. I made my purchase confidently. Well, maybe not confidently. Because I do remember feeling guilty about shopping for myself when I was at a craft show aimed at gifts for loved ones, and worrying that maybe a new chopping board wasn't a necessity (even though I cook often and passionately believe in supporting local artists and small businesses).

For some reason, I remember distinctly deciding I should settle. I can still FEEL the decision to choose small, compromise and be 'responsible'. Like saving $50 was being 'responsible'? WTF. A warped moment in judgment, y'all. Oh, the issues we humans have!

That tiny decision to buy the less expensive board means that EVERY time I cook I get annoyed. Like really annoyed. And trust me, my annoyed self is not very pretty - or polite.

I don't have enough room to chop veggies efficiently. I struggle to keep the food on the board. I twist and turn myself into weird angles to accommodate my limiting surface. The bottom line is, I find myself in a state of struggle. This crappy state of struggle only adds negative energy to my life. No bueno.

I know it seems like such a small thing, and there are some of you that want to scream 'Suck it up, buttercup! You have a nice chopping board!" And I get that. But I challenge you to look at some of the tiny things that annoy you in your life, or cause you frustration, and ask yourself:

Could I have avoided this?
If the answer is yes, ask yourself why you decided not to avoid the pitfall. Why did you embrace the struggle? Do you do this often?

Chances are you are choosing small ways to PROVE to yourself that you are not worthy of amazingness 24/7. That was the case for me. I definitely know that now.

A few months ago I wrote about my big purge of stuff which was inspired by the Marie Kondo book The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying Up. The main takeaway from the book is to only keep things that spark joy. Another way to look at this is to release things that create struggle. In some ways, I think this is an easier perspective. Maybe because we recognize pain easier than joy? Not sure. But what I do know is that in every area of our lives we must make a habit of letting go of shit that weighs us down. Ditch the struggle. Toss the pain.

Oh - and buy the bigger chopping board. I plan on doing that at the upcoming One of Kind Show. The time has come and I know it will be a beauty that brings me joy for years to come.

To your brave success,
Alana

Deflated but in the game

Last week, On Tuesday, October 24th, I did an FB live with the title Why I Believe Fortune Favours the Brave. It was intended to let people know exactly why that saying is so important to me, and why it is the inspiration for my business.

Well, about five minutes after the video was posted, I wanted to take it down. I was overcome with complete certainty that a) it sucked and b) I didn’t really say anything of value and c) what was the point of doing any of this? I mean, no one was even watching it live! And top it off, I had what Brené Brown calls a ‘vulnerability hangover’ - though I am not sure why as I really didn’t reveal that much about myself, contrary to my original intention of the video.

But as it turns out, I am really, really having a tough time putting myself out there. I thought it would be easier. I thought since I at least don’t have a fear of public speaking that I would be much more comfortable sharing tidbits about my life and business online. Nope. Turns out it is brutally hard for me. In fact, the whole reason I am putting this insight into a blog post is that I just couldn’t face doing another FB live video today (I am writing this the day after I posted the video I’m referring to). I feel too deflated and I am allowing myself a very minor, temporary pity party.

I am someone who likes people to think I have my shit together. And, in many ways, I do. I really do. But in some ways I don’t, just like the rest of the world. We all consciously know that even the most accomplished, successful people still have issues of course, but we can’t help wonder if we are more screwed up than them and have moments of ‘oh fuck, I don’t know what the hell I am doing’.

So, why didn’t I take the video down?

I took a deep breath and rationally looked at the situation.

While the video was not as illuminating as I would have liked, it was not horrible. And I did three things I am proud of:

I showed up.

I followed through with a goal.

I faced my fear of FB lives.

My ability to quickly put things in perspective is thanks to the coaches I have hired and the billion personal development books I have read. I was rationally able to reason with myself and see the positive side to this story. I was also able to be kind to myself. The night I did the video I was a definitely tired and honestly, not feeling a huge bolt of inspiration. So is it any wonder the video fell kinda flat? No, not at all.

Also, the fact is, I am a business, marketing, branding and design expert but I am NOT YET an online maven. I am NOT YET an FB live superstar. I am NOT YET a coach with decades of experience under my belt. I have a long, long way to go. And that is ok. In fact, it is more than ok. It is awesome. Because it means I have more juicy goals yet to accomplish, and each time I go for them I will be becoming a better coach, entrepreneur and person. I do, with all my heart, believe this to be true.

Thanks for hanging around for what will likely be a bumpy, badass ride.

To your brave success,
Alana