DO WHAT KEEPS BUBBLING UP

Hello Brave Ones,

For the last year or so, I’ve been pretty annoyed. Well, really annoyed actually.

I can’t stop thinking about writing personal development/coaching content and I can’t get words and phrases out of my head. All. Day. Long.

I get up and begin getting ready for work and my brain starts writing. I go running an errand and I’m having to stop in the middle of the street to capture words on my iPhone. And, most interestingly, I go to spin class and pages of writing download into my head as I bust it uphill to Lady Gaga. This always proves super frustrating as I don’t have any way to capture the content during class, and by the time I’m leaving the studio, I have forgotten about 95% of it. Hmmph.

Most days what aggravates me the most is that I just don’t have the time to write 24/7. Like most of you, I’ve got a million things to do and a list of priorities to tackle. It is really hard for me to make writing a priority, and I’m slow at it. And um, let’s not forget the obvious here - I am not a ‘writer’! I write content for my website and blog, but I don’t have formal training. I’ve always been a designer who communicates mainly through images, not words. I loved English in high school (shout out to Ms. Anne Carrier!), but I can’t say I was ever destined for publishing glory. 

But one day - finally! - it dawned on me what was happening.

The reason why I can’t stop thinking of writing is that this is something I need to do. This is something I need to honour.

I need to stop whining already!!! I have to ditch being annoyed at this whole writing thing and embrace it like a hot chai latte on a cold rainy day.

Kinda obvious, I know.

But how many times do we ignore what is completely obvious because it is either making us uncomfortable or challenging us??

So this is what I have decided:

If something keeps tugging at your shirt sleeve or is stuck in your head like a bad commercial jingle (right now I’m thinking of Faaaaabric-land! FABRICLAND!), then follow that pull. Do what keeps bubbling up. Don’t waste time questioning WHY you are being nudged in a certain direction, just do it already. 

I realized that the more I pushed writing to the side, or the more I doubted the legitimacy of this desire to put words on a page, the more I was falling into a state of resistance. I was pushing back on what my naturally manifesting and that was making each day feel like I was paddling upstream. Not fun. And not necessary.

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So, brave ones, I’m going to keep writing my little heart out, as often as I can. I’m not going to care whether my writing is perfect or prize-worthy. I’m simply going to honour what my brain (and heart) is telling me to do and let it lead to where it leads. And if that leads to somewhere or nowhere, that works for me. I don’t want to care about the outcome or results or the ROI. Yes, I do hope that my stories and blog posts positively impact others - especially designers & creatives - but I think right now my writing needs to feed my own soul more than it has to inspire others.

I have a feeling that once I give myself full permission to write without thinking about how much time I’m spending on it, where it is leading, or if it is
"on brand”, then the true purpose of this work will reveal itself. Woot. Can’t wait.

To your brave success - and may whatever is bubbling up in your world make its way to the surface with ease and grace.
Alana